Hello Blog World! How's everyone been doing?
Life has been pretty fun lately. Here are some updates:
1. Got a place of my own. Never thought I'd like it but it's growing on me. I honestly don't think I'd make it without having Seth here though. He sure is amazing. When you walk in the living room is a "Cinema/Movie" theme. Then in the back drop is Paris...oh I will have to show you this Paris thing I got! LOVE IT! Then over in the kitchen is my little fat Italian chef guy. You know, with the big white hat. So you get to travel the world at my place. It's fun to have themes I think.
2. Applied for a new job position within the job I currently have. I think I basically got it but I have to wait and see. I am excited to see what's next.
3. Seth and I are celebrating our first Christmas together!! We have never been together on the actual day of Christmas, so I'm looking forward to that. We do a little thing called "12 Days" and it started today...he got me gloves, which I needed! It brings excitement from now until Christmas morning. It's a lot of fun.
So yeah. That's just a little update in the life of Staci. Oh and I don't have cable or internet at my new place so I've been watching A LOT of movies. It's kinda fun. I usually just come to my mom's house and check my Facebook while I'm doing laundry. However, she is losing her internet in January...NO FUN. Hopefully by then I'll have internet at my place. Who knows though. Money is tight right now. No new news there ;o)
Well I better be going. I have to go home and wrap a few more things. Hope everyone is enjoying this season and is not being grumpy!!
~ From the <3 ~
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Sunday, October 11, 2009
wow
WOW! It's been a while since I've written a blog! So much has been going on. I usually think about writing but then I just never get around to it. Side note ~ I just love this time of year, you have no idea how much!! The pumpkins and trees turning colors! Ok I had to add that in there. ~ Here are some highlighted points to help you catch up:
1. Seth moved here. After 2.5 years of long distance, it finally happened. It has been wonderful but I will say it takes getting use to. It's a big change for both of us. He is truly amazing and to up and leave all his friends...he must REALLY love me. I'm actually learning what it means to go on double dates lol Its fun. Sometimes frustrating but at the end of it all we love each other.
2. I'm looking into being a medical transcriptionist, I'm actually one step away from starting the course. It always seems to be a step away! I need something in my life that makes me push myself. My current job doesn't do that. Plus, now is my time to figure out what I want. I don't have a family to take care of or even a house for that matter. So I need to hurry it up a little :)
3. Seth and I are in the process of starting our non-profit organization, Christmas Morning Missions (insert copy wright symbol here lol). We plan to gather enough toys to then ship over to Haiti and other places. Kind of like the Shoe Box Ministry but we plan to do it twice a year (once we have the money to do so). We are hooking up with his Church, who have orphanges and Churches over there (and other places) already. We have to get the wrinkles ironed out but we are so excited about it! We hope to see our vision for this come to pass. You never know though, we are just following God and His footsteps and we all know that changes from time to time. :)
I think its better to have to much vision then no vision at all.
4. I wrote my second Childrens book in my series "Angel On Your Shoulder". I am pretty happy about them. A friend of mine is going to school to be a Children's book editor and she is helping me with them. She also knows of an illistrator that may help me with my pictures. Can you imagine how cool it would be to see that come to pass!! :)
So those are my main 4 points. Now, I'm going to go and read other blogs to catch up with other people. Talk with you soon!!
1. Seth moved here. After 2.5 years of long distance, it finally happened. It has been wonderful but I will say it takes getting use to. It's a big change for both of us. He is truly amazing and to up and leave all his friends...he must REALLY love me. I'm actually learning what it means to go on double dates lol Its fun. Sometimes frustrating but at the end of it all we love each other.
2. I'm looking into being a medical transcriptionist, I'm actually one step away from starting the course. It always seems to be a step away! I need something in my life that makes me push myself. My current job doesn't do that. Plus, now is my time to figure out what I want. I don't have a family to take care of or even a house for that matter. So I need to hurry it up a little :)
3. Seth and I are in the process of starting our non-profit organization, Christmas Morning Missions (insert copy wright symbol here lol). We plan to gather enough toys to then ship over to Haiti and other places. Kind of like the Shoe Box Ministry but we plan to do it twice a year (once we have the money to do so). We are hooking up with his Church, who have orphanges and Churches over there (and other places) already. We have to get the wrinkles ironed out but we are so excited about it! We hope to see our vision for this come to pass. You never know though, we are just following God and His footsteps and we all know that changes from time to time. :)
I think its better to have to much vision then no vision at all.
4. I wrote my second Childrens book in my series "Angel On Your Shoulder". I am pretty happy about them. A friend of mine is going to school to be a Children's book editor and she is helping me with them. She also knows of an illistrator that may help me with my pictures. Can you imagine how cool it would be to see that come to pass!! :)
So those are my main 4 points. Now, I'm going to go and read other blogs to catch up with other people. Talk with you soon!!
Saturday, July 4, 2009
Leadership/Title/Responsibilty
I've been thinking and you tell me if I'm wrong...
When you place yourself in leadership, whether it be in a church or in a job, you are allowing others to scrutinize you. You are allowing them to hold you responsible for more things than normal. No one has forced you to take on this role. You knew the moment you took that next step, you would need to watch your actions, what you say, wear, dress more then ever before. Why, because you are allowing yourself to be held accountable in areas that most people would normally just look over and not care about.
The position is not easy, but you chose it, don't forget that part. Don't get mad or upset when people look at you different or criticize you more than others. You made the choice to be the leader you are. We are not perfect and we mess up, but if you hold that position, hold it with dignity. Know that your words and your actions need to reflect that of your "boss". This is no longer about YOU and YOUR feelings, it's bigger than that.
Note to self: Live each day as though you have stepped into a role of a leader. My boss will be reflected with honor and dignity and when I let him down, I will learn from my mistake and press on. The best thing about my boss is that He will never fire me. Lord, let me never take that for granted.
When you place yourself in leadership, whether it be in a church or in a job, you are allowing others to scrutinize you. You are allowing them to hold you responsible for more things than normal. No one has forced you to take on this role. You knew the moment you took that next step, you would need to watch your actions, what you say, wear, dress more then ever before. Why, because you are allowing yourself to be held accountable in areas that most people would normally just look over and not care about.
The position is not easy, but you chose it, don't forget that part. Don't get mad or upset when people look at you different or criticize you more than others. You made the choice to be the leader you are. We are not perfect and we mess up, but if you hold that position, hold it with dignity. Know that your words and your actions need to reflect that of your "boss". This is no longer about YOU and YOUR feelings, it's bigger than that.
Note to self: Live each day as though you have stepped into a role of a leader. My boss will be reflected with honor and dignity and when I let him down, I will learn from my mistake and press on. The best thing about my boss is that He will never fire me. Lord, let me never take that for granted.
Sunday, June 28, 2009
It's a long one. Be ready to read...
Ok... let's look at a few points before I start talking...
1) I've always struggled with my weight. Mainly since I was 13.
2) I've been up and down. Down usually after a break up... which is basically cause I didn't eat anything. Stupid boys! :)
3) I have been working out and eating healthy for over 6 months now and nothing has changed. When I say nothing, I mean NOTHING. This broke me and I felt so helpless.
I was at my breaking point, my last breaking point. So, I decided to see a Dr. that my friend recommended. He's a chiropractor as well as a nutritionist. I was not sure at first because insurance does not cover anything and lets just say its not cheap. Plus, I was mad. Why did I really have to go to a specialist, why wasn't working out and eating healthy good enough!! I had to look past that though and so far I've been amazed at what he's found out. Not to mention the crazy stuff he shows me that the human body does! It's really unbelievable.
So a lot of blood work and tests were done and as of right now I'm on what is called a "rotation diet". I am still in the early stages, as I've only seen him twice. One of the main tests I took was a food sensitivity test that showed me what foods my body was sensitive to (which is different from being allergic to). Who would have thought among those foods would be broccoli, chocolate, and strawberries!? Other main foods I have to cut out completely is anything that has yeast or sugar in it. There are a whole bunch of other stuff but that's the main ones...oh and dairy! Which, is heartbreaking. Let's just say, it's not going to be easy, but I am more determined than ever. Plus, I love the fact that this rotation diet I'm on has been made just for me. No more second guessing.
Oh and so you know - a rotation diet is a nutritious eating program that takes planning based on the elimination of reactive foods. It provides food suggestions for each day in a four-day cycle. Rotating and diversifying your food intake can prevent the development of other food sensitivities. Food sensitivity is often a result of repetitive eating. In both adults and children, wheat, milk, corn, eggs and citrus fruits are typical offenders.
I have a four day meal plan. Each day I have a list of foods I can choose from. Some days are not fun because there is basically NOTHING to eat, other days, I can have potatoes, rice and all that "GOOD STUFF - blah". What I have to remember is that foods that have been taken away can be introduced back into my diet. However, that doesn't mean I can go back to eating a doughnut here and there or bread all the time. Being that I have a yeast overgrowth, I need to stop feeding it and break the habit. This is a life changing event for me. I only want to do this once, spend the money and learn all I can... ONCE. I want to get on a path that doesn't lead to a dead end. It's not going to be easy and to be honest I've done this before but I am more determined than ever! Plus, I have more accountability as well.
So, I am already back to day one (already did the first 4) and I have to keep thinking positive thoughts. It's hard to see the end right now and because of that I am just focusing on day to day.
Here is my goal. To be healthy. I know I won't be on this rotation forever but the knowledge I'm gaining WILL last forever. Never would I have known the importance of "labels" and what certain foods do to a person. I want to treat this like school. I want to learn so much and act upon it. I can see one day becoming a nutritionist and helping those who feel the same way I felt weeks ago. Wouldn't that be awesome?
So yeah, there is my story. I know its kind of long and I probably forgot some points but I think you know what I'm say and where I am going. Valerie, my friend who did this as well, has already warned me that I will most likely cry and that it's OK! The enemy will not win this one. I'm ready for a new life and I'm excited to see where it's going to lead me. I'm sure I'll post more about this as time goes on and as Dr. Heath finds out more information. If you think about me, say a prayer, I want this to be the last time I ever face this. I will take the hold off of my life that the enemy has enjoyed having for so long!
I will!
1) I've always struggled with my weight. Mainly since I was 13.
2) I've been up and down. Down usually after a break up... which is basically cause I didn't eat anything. Stupid boys! :)
3) I have been working out and eating healthy for over 6 months now and nothing has changed. When I say nothing, I mean NOTHING. This broke me and I felt so helpless.
I was at my breaking point, my last breaking point. So, I decided to see a Dr. that my friend recommended. He's a chiropractor as well as a nutritionist. I was not sure at first because insurance does not cover anything and lets just say its not cheap. Plus, I was mad. Why did I really have to go to a specialist, why wasn't working out and eating healthy good enough!! I had to look past that though and so far I've been amazed at what he's found out. Not to mention the crazy stuff he shows me that the human body does! It's really unbelievable.
So a lot of blood work and tests were done and as of right now I'm on what is called a "rotation diet". I am still in the early stages, as I've only seen him twice. One of the main tests I took was a food sensitivity test that showed me what foods my body was sensitive to (which is different from being allergic to). Who would have thought among those foods would be broccoli, chocolate, and strawberries!? Other main foods I have to cut out completely is anything that has yeast or sugar in it. There are a whole bunch of other stuff but that's the main ones...oh and dairy! Which, is heartbreaking. Let's just say, it's not going to be easy, but I am more determined than ever. Plus, I love the fact that this rotation diet I'm on has been made just for me. No more second guessing.
Oh and so you know - a rotation diet is a nutritious eating program that takes planning based on the elimination of reactive foods. It provides food suggestions for each day in a four-day cycle. Rotating and diversifying your food intake can prevent the development of other food sensitivities. Food sensitivity is often a result of repetitive eating. In both adults and children, wheat, milk, corn, eggs and citrus fruits are typical offenders.
I have a four day meal plan. Each day I have a list of foods I can choose from. Some days are not fun because there is basically NOTHING to eat, other days, I can have potatoes, rice and all that "GOOD STUFF - blah". What I have to remember is that foods that have been taken away can be introduced back into my diet. However, that doesn't mean I can go back to eating a doughnut here and there or bread all the time. Being that I have a yeast overgrowth, I need to stop feeding it and break the habit. This is a life changing event for me. I only want to do this once, spend the money and learn all I can... ONCE. I want to get on a path that doesn't lead to a dead end. It's not going to be easy and to be honest I've done this before but I am more determined than ever! Plus, I have more accountability as well.
So, I am already back to day one (already did the first 4) and I have to keep thinking positive thoughts. It's hard to see the end right now and because of that I am just focusing on day to day.
Here is my goal. To be healthy. I know I won't be on this rotation forever but the knowledge I'm gaining WILL last forever. Never would I have known the importance of "labels" and what certain foods do to a person. I want to treat this like school. I want to learn so much and act upon it. I can see one day becoming a nutritionist and helping those who feel the same way I felt weeks ago. Wouldn't that be awesome?
So yeah, there is my story. I know its kind of long and I probably forgot some points but I think you know what I'm say and where I am going. Valerie, my friend who did this as well, has already warned me that I will most likely cry and that it's OK! The enemy will not win this one. I'm ready for a new life and I'm excited to see where it's going to lead me. I'm sure I'll post more about this as time goes on and as Dr. Heath finds out more information. If you think about me, say a prayer, I want this to be the last time I ever face this. I will take the hold off of my life that the enemy has enjoyed having for so long!
I will!
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Scatter
I don't think I am going to be writing anymore. Seth has a blog now and he smokes me out of the water with his writing. Jealous maybe? I don't know. I have so much to say right now but don't know how to say it. So here are the main points/topics:
1) Church's are way to political
2) Why do I feel Christians only care when someone is in a "situation"
3) Why do I feel that after 10 or so years of the same church, I don't want to go to it anymore. I love my Pastor and some of the people there but something is missing and I can't seem to get it!
4) I feel scattered right now
Alrighty... hopefully I'll be back at a later time to touch base on these few things. Until then, feel free to share your thoughts.
1) Church's are way to political
2) Why do I feel Christians only care when someone is in a "situation"
3) Why do I feel that after 10 or so years of the same church, I don't want to go to it anymore. I love my Pastor and some of the people there but something is missing and I can't seem to get it!
4) I feel scattered right now
Alrighty... hopefully I'll be back at a later time to touch base on these few things. Until then, feel free to share your thoughts.
Sunday, May 17, 2009
OH CANADA... MY HOME AND NATIVE LAND!!!
I don't think I have ever taken in so much information nor had so many emotions as I did on my trip to Canada. As some of you know, an unfortunate situation happened and my 2 nieces and my nephew were put in a foster home. My parents are in the process of getting custody/adopting them and it's a HUGE step for all of us. I have been the primary "spokesperson", if you want to call it that, since the beginning of all of this. At first I was all about it and now, I have my concerns. My concerns do not overshadow the love I have for these three kids though. I mean they didn't ask to be in the situation they are in right now (no kid usually does). It's going to be a hard road (which we've known from the start) but I know our family can show them so much love and what a family is truly made of. The only problem we are now facing is the "political" aspect of it all. What I mean by that is how the Canadian government will work with the American government. It could go great and we get them with no problem or the other way around. That part we just have to leave in God's hands.
Going back to when I said concerns, I mean the emotional baggage that is coming along with these little ones. It breaks my heart when I hear what they have been through and what goes on in their heads. It takes a lot of emotion out of you because you can't treat these kids like you would someone else. I mean to a degree you can and should but because of where they have come from and what "situations" they have been in, you have to change your mind to think in a different way (if that makes any sense). I know my God is a big God though and with time, love and structure, I really believe they will come out of this situation fantastic people.
I needed to take a breath and really understand that I can't control what's going to happen. Which, I know that, but sometimes I wish I could just know the future. My family is being so supportive and that in itself is a HUGE blessing! I have a good feeling no matter what happens next, it's all going to be alright. No matter how tough it gets.
So as of right now the next step is to have the kids come and visit in July. We have a lot of fun things planned and it will be nice to see them in "our environment". Once that time comes around, I will let you know how it's going!!
Thank you for all your prayers and please keep them coming. This process is LONG from over!
Going back to when I said concerns, I mean the emotional baggage that is coming along with these little ones. It breaks my heart when I hear what they have been through and what goes on in their heads. It takes a lot of emotion out of you because you can't treat these kids like you would someone else. I mean to a degree you can and should but because of where they have come from and what "situations" they have been in, you have to change your mind to think in a different way (if that makes any sense). I know my God is a big God though and with time, love and structure, I really believe they will come out of this situation fantastic people.
I needed to take a breath and really understand that I can't control what's going to happen. Which, I know that, but sometimes I wish I could just know the future. My family is being so supportive and that in itself is a HUGE blessing! I have a good feeling no matter what happens next, it's all going to be alright. No matter how tough it gets.
So as of right now the next step is to have the kids come and visit in July. We have a lot of fun things planned and it will be nice to see them in "our environment". Once that time comes around, I will let you know how it's going!!
Thank you for all your prayers and please keep them coming. This process is LONG from over!
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Hidey Ho
Long time no talk! Ok so I'm getting prepared to go to Canada. I've decided to make the best of the trip. I might not be happy with myself right now but that doesn't mean I can't change that fact into a positive one!
I'm kind of sad because I won't get to talk to Seth for a whole 5 days!!! I think we'll be ok though.
I know of this couple who make me some what sick. They haven't even known each other that long and they are already engaged... and they are doing long distance!... jealous? Maybe. It's just hard but I know our waiting will one day be worth it. Like say in 4 months!!! AHHH I'm so excited that Seth will finally be moving here. Just to have that person who knows me so well and to enjoy life with them... excited is not even close to how I feel. A little anxious too but it will all work out.
Ok so back to the Canada thing. I'll try to take LOADS of pics and share them with you when I return.
Until then.....
I'm kind of sad because I won't get to talk to Seth for a whole 5 days!!! I think we'll be ok though.
I know of this couple who make me some what sick. They haven't even known each other that long and they are already engaged... and they are doing long distance!... jealous? Maybe. It's just hard but I know our waiting will one day be worth it. Like say in 4 months!!! AHHH I'm so excited that Seth will finally be moving here. Just to have that person who knows me so well and to enjoy life with them... excited is not even close to how I feel. A little anxious too but it will all work out.
Ok so back to the Canada thing. I'll try to take LOADS of pics and share them with you when I return.
Until then.....
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Oh let me tell you...
Sometimes it is so hard for me to be a friend to someone who could care less. That is why I don't have many "close" friends. You put your heart and soul into a friendship and they only give you 10% back. There are only a handful of people I would consider my true friends. Yes, I'll be nice to the others but I'm not going to pretend we're BFF's anymore. Errr can't you tell I'm just frustrated! I swear, I haven't been myself lately and I'm trying to figure out where I lost her. She's back there somewhere, maybe lying on a dirt path and just got too tired to go on. I need her back though.
I hope life starts turning around. I have so much coming up and it's scaring me.
FEELING OF THE MOMENT: DRY AND DUSTY
I hope life starts turning around. I have so much coming up and it's scaring me.
FEELING OF THE MOMENT: DRY AND DUSTY
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
His ways are FOR SURE not mine....
I've been thinking about how much trusting God's wisdom and love for us is so vital in life. I watch the 99 Balloons video from time to time because it reminds me of how powerful God is. The parents of Elliot could have forgotten ALL about God during their hardship, but as you see at the end of the video, God is who they praise! It touches me every time! I think to myself, why would God even have done that to them? Bring something so precious into their life only to take it away. Yet, the very people who walked through this trial realized the purpose of it all so quickly. It was so God would get the Glory. Look at how this one "tragedy" in some eyes, "blessing" in others, has touched so many hearts. May we all come to that peace and know the saying is true...ALL things happen for a reason. We might not like the reason and we may never know the reason but HE DOES.
Gosh, this writing stuff on a computer really helps get out your thoughts!! Even if only 3 ppl read it! haha.
Love you ALL!!!!!!!
Gosh, this writing stuff on a computer really helps get out your thoughts!! Even if only 3 ppl read it! haha.
Love you ALL!!!!!!!
Saturday, April 18, 2009
...and then Seth came along...
Seth use to travel with a ministry called TZM and they were at my church for a about a week back in February of 07. I got to know some of the people on the team and even had a small crush (nothing serious AT ALL) on one of the other guys. I actually wouldn't call it was a crush, it was more of the fact that I thought he was a cool person. Well one evening I saw Seth walking by and I said to my friend "Dare me to go talk to him?" lol. I don't think I even allowed her to respond and before I knew it I walked over to him and the infamous words came out of my mouth "You know, I think you should smile more". I think he was taken back a bit that this random girl was telling him that. He replied with "Oh do you now?". That was basically it because he started doing something else (I think someone rudely interrupted us). What I thought was cute was when he saw me later that night, he made a point to walk by me and smile.
Ok, so the next day I got on the team's website to check them out and I came across Seth's profile. I noticed on one of his pictures it said "for a good time call home" and what followed was his phone number. Well I couldn't believe that someone would ACTUALLY put their real number on the web so... I send a text to it. My text said "Who's this". haha Like I didn't know! Well, like the dummy I am I forgot that people could CALL me back if they wanted and that's exactly what Seth did. I didn't pick up though!! I was too chicken. He left a random voice mail, which I wish I would have kept. I proceeded to tell him, in a text, who I was, I was the girl who thought he needed to smile more. I think from that day on we never stoped talking. We even used that day (February 26th) as our "anniversary", which I think is perfect! hehe
The very next day he walked up to me and introduced himself in the "proper" way. I think it was later that night, after service was over, we stood at the top of the sanctuary and talked until everyone else had gone home. I think we were even forced out!! :o) We found ourselves talking about such random things and laughing at each other's crazy humor or lack there of.
This next part is one of Seth's favorite memories. It was their last night there and I had to leave a little early. So I located where Seth was to say goodbye. I think he was going in for a SIDE HUG and well... I just put my hand out to shake his!! haha. Later on he said that I left him thinking "That's all I get? A handshake?" To this day I don't remember why I just shook his hand! I think it's funny though.
After that things moved pretty fast, but in a good way. The team came back like a month later and we got to hang out even more. We talked so much that it felt as if we knew each other all along. Being that we only get to see each other 4 times out of a year, we make the most of it. We have done so many fun and exciting things that I can't wait to see what life will hold for us when we actually live in the same place! This makes me want to continue telling our stories but I'll leave it at this one for now! :)
So yeah... that was the start of it all.
To be continued....
Oh my word! Want to know one of my favorite parts?! You do? Ok good! Seth said this is how he knew that he knew I was THE ONE. One day while I was at work, I sent a text to Seth and asked him if he had any kids (now remember this was still very early on). He responded with, "No, do you?". I said "Yes, I have a little girl who's two". HAHA He was silent for a while and then responded with something along the lines of "Oh, that's nice". I said "I'm just MESSING WITH YA" lol He in return told me I was sick and twisted but that he loved the fact I could joke around! All I know is that I would have LOVED to see his facial expression!!
hehe
Ok, so the next day I got on the team's website to check them out and I came across Seth's profile. I noticed on one of his pictures it said "for a good time call home" and what followed was his phone number. Well I couldn't believe that someone would ACTUALLY put their real number on the web so... I send a text to it. My text said "Who's this". haha Like I didn't know! Well, like the dummy I am I forgot that people could CALL me back if they wanted and that's exactly what Seth did. I didn't pick up though!! I was too chicken. He left a random voice mail, which I wish I would have kept. I proceeded to tell him, in a text, who I was, I was the girl who thought he needed to smile more. I think from that day on we never stoped talking. We even used that day (February 26th) as our "anniversary", which I think is perfect! hehe
The very next day he walked up to me and introduced himself in the "proper" way. I think it was later that night, after service was over, we stood at the top of the sanctuary and talked until everyone else had gone home. I think we were even forced out!! :o) We found ourselves talking about such random things and laughing at each other's crazy humor or lack there of.
This next part is one of Seth's favorite memories. It was their last night there and I had to leave a little early. So I located where Seth was to say goodbye. I think he was going in for a SIDE HUG and well... I just put my hand out to shake his!! haha. Later on he said that I left him thinking "That's all I get? A handshake?" To this day I don't remember why I just shook his hand! I think it's funny though.
After that things moved pretty fast, but in a good way. The team came back like a month later and we got to hang out even more. We talked so much that it felt as if we knew each other all along. Being that we only get to see each other 4 times out of a year, we make the most of it. We have done so many fun and exciting things that I can't wait to see what life will hold for us when we actually live in the same place! This makes me want to continue telling our stories but I'll leave it at this one for now! :)
So yeah... that was the start of it all.
To be continued....
Oh my word! Want to know one of my favorite parts?! You do? Ok good! Seth said this is how he knew that he knew I was THE ONE. One day while I was at work, I sent a text to Seth and asked him if he had any kids (now remember this was still very early on). He responded with, "No, do you?". I said "Yes, I have a little girl who's two". HAHA He was silent for a while and then responded with something along the lines of "Oh, that's nice". I said "I'm just MESSING WITH YA" lol He in return told me I was sick and twisted but that he loved the fact I could joke around! All I know is that I would have LOVED to see his facial expression!!
hehe
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Calm down a couple notches!
I am getting SO nervous, anxious, emotional, you name it! So much is going to be happening from now till the end of the year. Fun and exciting stuff as well as sad and embarrassing stuff. Let me give you some details...
Fun and exciting stuff includes Seth moving here finally, visiting Canada and seeing my nieces and nephew, my Aunt and Uncle coming to visit from Canada and probably other stuff I can't think of right now. Also, hopefully mom and dad getting custody of the kids (which is another blog for a later time). That is exciting but also terrifying all at the same time!
Embarrassing (and sad too) is being in a beautiful wedding and being the biggest one in the wedding party (don't get me started).
Sad is saying goodbye to my nieces and nephew and my Aunt and Uncle and Seth moving here...
Why do I say Seth moving here you might ask? Well, I feel sad for him. He has to leave his friends and family and move to a place where he hardly knows anyone. All because he loves me! Talk about wanting everything to work out perfectly!! I guess it's not really "sad" but it is definitely emotional. We have gone two years of basically loving each other through words (aka the phone) and only seeing each other a handful, if that, out of the year. So of course it will take some getting use to going from hardly seeing each other to seeing each other all the time! I am excited though, don't get me wrong. I know it's going to be great, it's just the whole transition period that gets to me.
That being said, God has reminded me of this - HE IS IN CONTROL! Seth and I have waited patiently and allowed God to take the steering wheel, so why should I stress and worry about things now. They will either fall into place or God will show us another path to take. He's so glorious. Even talking about how He's got it under control right now makes me feel better! (I love you Lord).
So yeah... next obstical I have to overcome is realizing I'm beautiful the way I am. Yes, I can lose a few (OK A LOT) of lbs but that's the future and right now I am who I am. SO GET LOST DEVIL. Man, for real though, who does he think he is. I have to keep telling myself I will get through the wedding! It won't be as bad as I think it will be! Plus, all focus will be on the bride...NOT ME! Unless I fall! haha
Alright, I'm done ranting for the day! Much love to all who read this!
:)
Fun and exciting stuff includes Seth moving here finally, visiting Canada and seeing my nieces and nephew, my Aunt and Uncle coming to visit from Canada and probably other stuff I can't think of right now. Also, hopefully mom and dad getting custody of the kids (which is another blog for a later time). That is exciting but also terrifying all at the same time!
Embarrassing (and sad too) is being in a beautiful wedding and being the biggest one in the wedding party (don't get me started).
Sad is saying goodbye to my nieces and nephew and my Aunt and Uncle and Seth moving here...
Why do I say Seth moving here you might ask? Well, I feel sad for him. He has to leave his friends and family and move to a place where he hardly knows anyone. All because he loves me! Talk about wanting everything to work out perfectly!! I guess it's not really "sad" but it is definitely emotional. We have gone two years of basically loving each other through words (aka the phone) and only seeing each other a handful, if that, out of the year. So of course it will take some getting use to going from hardly seeing each other to seeing each other all the time! I am excited though, don't get me wrong. I know it's going to be great, it's just the whole transition period that gets to me.
That being said, God has reminded me of this - HE IS IN CONTROL! Seth and I have waited patiently and allowed God to take the steering wheel, so why should I stress and worry about things now. They will either fall into place or God will show us another path to take. He's so glorious. Even talking about how He's got it under control right now makes me feel better! (I love you Lord).
So yeah... next obstical I have to overcome is realizing I'm beautiful the way I am. Yes, I can lose a few (OK A LOT) of lbs but that's the future and right now I am who I am. SO GET LOST DEVIL. Man, for real though, who does he think he is. I have to keep telling myself I will get through the wedding! It won't be as bad as I think it will be! Plus, all focus will be on the bride...NOT ME! Unless I fall! haha
Alright, I'm done ranting for the day! Much love to all who read this!
:)
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
So I was thinking about how people always say "Enjoy life, you never know when it will be gone".. or something along those lines. What I thought about is how it's not what you do in your own life as much as it's what you do in other peoples lives. I will be dead, so nothing will matter to me. It's what I leave behind. It's who I've inspired, laughed with and loved. Most importantly, did I leave Jesus with them. There was a professional baseball player that died recently, he was from this area, and to everyone around him he had everything. He was living the American dream (which is another blog in itself). Then in a heartbeat, a blink, it was over. He was gone. I don't know if he knew the Lord but it goes to show that you can have everything you've imagined but in the end the only thing that matters is your relationship with God. I'm learning to be thankful everyday for life and to enjoy those around me. Even you guys reading this!! So basically this was to tell you to slow down a little and really take in all that's around you.
We make a living by what we get, we make a life by what we give - Sir Winston Churchhill.
Oh and by the way... my brother took the picture in this blog. Isn't is pretty!!??
Monday, April 13, 2009
Ok I'm trying it
So... I wasn't really going to do this because I know Kristine will get on here and scrutinize my spelling. You know the your and you're and then and than. Then I thought a little more and I realized I'll do what I want. This is my blog spot and if I want to spell then when I should spell than... I will. So... Kris when you are reading this... BACK OFF!! haha. No, j/k (kinda). I'll try my best. I can't promise you big words though... :)
I think this is going to be more of an inspiration page... a page full of quotes that I either come up with or ones I find. Maybe passages from the Word, or just what God is speaking to me. I might throw in a little funny stuff here and there as well. I may even vent from time to time. I just hope you come on this journey with me. I can't promise I'll talk to you everyday but I will see you once in a while.... so until next time.
(Yeah.. so how's that for the first blog? Short and sweet!! WHOOohoooo. Uh-oh.. I was thinking and what if this takes me away from PLURK??!!)
K, BYE!
I think this is going to be more of an inspiration page... a page full of quotes that I either come up with or ones I find. Maybe passages from the Word, or just what God is speaking to me. I might throw in a little funny stuff here and there as well. I may even vent from time to time. I just hope you come on this journey with me. I can't promise I'll talk to you everyday but I will see you once in a while.... so until next time.
(Yeah.. so how's that for the first blog? Short and sweet!! WHOOohoooo. Uh-oh.. I was thinking and what if this takes me away from PLURK??!!)
K, BYE!
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